I let him go. .not because I wanted to, but I think, he wanted this. We’ve have been ups and downs. Problems did not stop coming. . Good thing?? During those trials, we’re both there, trying to save everything we have built. All the good and bad memories, after all, for me those are all good. Because I know, during those times, I was there for him, and he was there for me too! We’re like so called on-off relationship. And there was no regret. Coz one thing for sure, we really love each other. (No doubt about it!). . I thought I will last, as in like for many years. . Should I say life time? Almost 2 yrs. Maybe that is enough. (Hard part) I love him too much that he can not love me back anymore. I don’t know! I am so confuse about his love for me, or maybe, he doesn’t love me anymore(I have feelings, I’m not numb). And because of that, I have to let him go. And start a new life ahead without him. This is so hard for me, but I have no choice. And maybe, this is God’s way of telling me to stop loving him. I want him to be happy, not with me (coz I can feel he’s not), maybe with somebody else. As of now, I still love him so much!

hahaha. .2 months, im back!

sori. i was just lazy to visit my blog. .

 should I say I forgot my password? thats why. . hahaha!

tom is our final exams, and damn it!  I dont think I can review, know why??? nka-DSL na kame! yey. . i can visit this blog na anytime, and post nonsense stuffs. .

Im exctd na to graduate! few days from know we’ll be leaving the gates of southridge. .

bye to the ff:

mang delo. .she’s so nice!

chang yuan. .always hbc but still, im gonna miss her!

to all my subj teachers. .thanks!

our beloved mang caslib. . IF DA SPID IS DOBOLD! what?? bold daw??

and to everyone else! bye!

 thanks for all the memories. .  . . . ..

(tears!)

last friday, our school held the pasiklaband 07. . it was okay. . kinda boring. . until i saw my ex bfs. . it was like a grand reunion. . hahaha. . ian, jp, justin, and dada were there!

 hehehehehehe. . but side,

heeeeeeeeeelllllllllllllllpppppppppppppp! im so lazy to do my IP. .to be submitted on wednesday! errrrrrrrrrrr.

gee! i passed the mcet! i dont know what to say. . . i’ve been waiting for the result since last month. . . then my mom told me that my sister texted her this morning and told her that i got it. . it was posted in their bulletin board. .i was ACCEPTED! nyihihihi! Damn I feel so good. . assssssssssssssssssssss innnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn! im excited to go to college! i love my future school! yikee! i want to be part of the MC pep squad! haaaaaaaaaaaaaai. . words cant explain how happy I am!

I DAMN HATE:

1.  math subject

2. tahong

3. frogs

4. snakes

5. heat from the sun

6. back fighters

7. bitch

8. him

9. being scolded w/o any reason

10. taking things for granted

11. living a day w/o his msgs

12. dark colors

13. flirt girls

14. pa-sosy

15. pa-tweetums

16. listening to opm

17. losers

18. KJ

19. non-sense conversation

20. I HATE HER!

nyahahahahah!

you cant blame me if im like this. . im still thinking of him once in a while. . they said,”dane normal yan. . minahal mo yung tao eh”. . and im like, “oo naman, and hindi ko naman kinakahiya yun”. . im starting to move on. . living a normal life. . enjoying everything. . but still, , when im alone,  , doing nothing. .i cant help it! but to think of him. . thoughts like. . hope he’s okay. . happy with her, , doing good in his studies, , healthy, , ,and everything! see! im still concern. . but i dont have any plans like “habol” or what. . God has a good   intention why He did this to me. . after all, im happy! esp., with my goooooodd gooooodd friends. . . =D hope youre happy and okey!

yesterday. .me and my 2 memoirs of geisha have decided to watch aghie’s jamming. . i was really lazy to come with them. . but because of their pamimilit. . napilit naman nila ko. . hehehe. .they started playing some songs. .yun nga lang, , walang mabuo! haha. .james *aghie’s bf* was there too. .while he was playing the bass guitar. . i got so curious. .and felt that. . hm. . im kinda  interested to learn how to play that fuckin guitar! hehehe. so james taught me the cords of Akap by imago and hiling by paramita. . guess what?????? I was able to play those songs! hahahaha. . yun lang, not yet  perfect. . e helow? it was my first time. . and hindi naman talaga ko join, , epal lang! its like, “si dane mag-gui2tar???? joke time?? naman! hehehe. .” whatta cool experience. . . . i dont know if i’ll continue that career. . bahala na! hehehe

what if I fall in love with the wrong guy?? he’s older than me. .im turning 17 and he’s already 18.  .turning 19. .and for god sake! he’s in a relationship. .i know this cant be. . I know im not yet in love .but im scared for the day to come when I cant longer say, “kuya”. .i asked him once, “may posibility kayang ma-fall ka sa’kin?wala lang. .im just curious!” then he said, “hindi malabo yun, pero hindi ko kaya ibigay yung life style na meron ka and nabibigay ng ibang boys na may gusto sayo. .ayun!” man! i dont know what to say, ,so i said “haha! baka nga!” but the truth is , , i wanted to tell him so many things like, im starting to like him more than a kuya. . know why? he’s so sweet. . caring, ,thoughtful, CUTE! and he’s loyal. . . . . . to his gf. .and hellooooooo? its not my hobby to destroy relationships. . i tried not to text him once in a while. .but its my heart who dictates me to do it. .his gf is nice, ,i can say. .but, she got jelous. .and guess who’s the damn reason? it was me!. . but hey, I dont give a damn. .we’re just friends. .God knows that. .sad part??he said to his gf that, his classmate was  the one who was texting me. .i felt bad when he confessed that to me, its like, “anung dapat itago, wala naman tayong something ha?” then he answered, “sorry dane, masyado lang talagang selosa si gf kahit sinong girl la malapit sa’kin pinag-seselosan niya, kaya kelangan ko mag-lie ng ganun. .sorry. T.T” . .ouch right?  i dont have any choice, but to accept it. .and everytime he’s with his gf. . “parang hindi niya ko kilala”. . he’s just playing safe. . and protecting their 9months relationship. .we’ve been friends since nov 9 last year(only!). .and im happy about it. .”basta nandito lang lagi yung strawberry shortcake. . para dun sa blueberry muffin”

my love is ryt here for you and im down to give you every part of me.

you’re the air that i breathe i don’t think i can make it without you.

you made me realize that love is about trust. i never believed in trust until i met you.

can i just say that u take my breath away? whenever we kiss, i swear i can float. and it feels like im in heaven.

i can still hear ur voice after we hang up on the phone. lunacy. i know right!

your hot eyes makes me wanna faint whenever u stare at me.

your kisses makes me shiver and i don’t wanna pull away.

your touch makes me wanna take you home and u know ill never leave you all alone.

before i was trying so hard not to fall. and now, i fell so hard. take my hand dont ever let go. it doesnt matter where youre taking me as long as im with you. i’ll go anywhere with yoU. anywhere… i Love you so much! i honestly dont think i can make it without you.

——————–> ALL THOSE WORDS ARE SHIT! THEY WILL MAKE US BELIEVE THAT THEY REALLY LOVE US, BUT IN THE END, THEY WILL LEAVE US WITH BROKEN HEARTS!  FUCK THEM! IM OVER WITH ALL THOSE LIES. .HAHAHAH! I WANT TO SEE THEM SUFFER. .

hey! this is my first post. . and i dont know what to say. .hahahaha.  anyway, a new blog, meaning a new dane! *mushy*. i have decided to create this blog coz, , , hm, , , hahah! i really dont know why. maybe this is my way of expressing what i feel. . right now, im super ok. .happy being single, happy with my friends, esp. him!. . if only i have the guts of  mentioning his name. .(kaso baka mabasa niya, kahiya!) hm, wala kaming SOMETHING, but still, im happy! and thats for real. . (kaya sa lahat ng inis at galit sakin jan, naman! d na q affected. sori!). he even told me to eat grass! haha. kasi one night magkatext kami, then he asked me, “kumain ka na?” I replied “Hindi pa eh, walang food, tamad ako magluto” then he said, “kahit damo kumain ka basta kumain ka. hahaha!” that msg made me laughed for hours.  . he’s a serious type of guy. .kaya pag once na humirit na, sobrang LOL ako. =D

hey, just want to say thank you for entering my life. .big thanks for the friendship!

i have to go! bye for now.

mua!